Words To Break Your Heart

by Steph Barrak

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Steph's debut album, released Valentine's Day 2013. 10% of proceeds fo to Music & Youth Initiative. Learn more at www.stephbarrak.com.

"...one to keep an eye on!" - Jimmy Lloyd, Jimmy Lloyd Songwriter Showcase on NBC TV

"...mixes the heartfelt with the optimistic..." - Allston Pudding

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released February 14, 2013

Music and lyrics by Steph Barrak
Produced by Mike Davidson

Engineered and mixed by Mike Davidson at Zippah Recording in Boston, MA. Mastered by Nick Zampiello & Rob Gonnella at New Alliance East.

Steph Barrak - vocals, guitar, piano
Duke Levine - guitar, lap steel
John Ducharme - guitar
Annie Hoffman - bass
Steve Scully - drums
Jamie Edwards - melotron, whirly, synth, organ
Matt Pynn - pedal steel
Eva Walsh - violin, viola
Mathew Wilmot - baritone sax
Bryan Murphy - trumpet
Jasen Camelio - trombone
Mike Davidson - additional guitars and piano
Adam Frederick - string and horn arrangements
Special thanks to Eric Law for cello work

Album artwork by Joseph Irizarry

Thank you to my family and friends for your continued support and encouragement. Special thanks to Joey Gerber, Conor Loughman, and Mike Davidson. I wouldn't have been able to do this without you.

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Indie folk/pop from Boston, MA.

All proceeds go to Girls Rock Campaign Boston.

Photo Credit: M. Davidson-Schapiro

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Track Name: Connecticut
Put your problems away
I don't have any time to talk to you
There are people that you could pay
Your money cries louder than you do

And it may be sad
But it's just the state of things we're in
Don't get mad
Play it like a game, maybe you'll win

I am sorry I always snap
The smallest things can make me break
I can't wait til I figure out
What's really jacking up all my days

And all I know
Is it's just the state of things we're in
It's all for show
Put your costume on, I'll count you in

Throw away your gypsy tricks
Your heart is fake, your words are spit
And I don't think you wanna see
What happens when I open it

On you, you got some nerve, you got some spunk
I think I know you well enough's enough
Please tell me it's a joke right
Cause I'm still laughing on the inside

And I know you like I knew you when we were just little kids
Yea, I know you like I knew you when we were rollerblading
Around the town, all up and down back in Connecticut
Yea, I know you and you wouldn't have liked this

Take a seat, come one come all
Come gather round and round and round
The freaks are taking over
And I can't tell the circus from the town

And you, I thought you'd understand
That we are done and I have had
Enough's enough, please tell me it's a joke right
Cause I'm still laughing on the inside

And I know you like I knew you when we were just little kids
Yea, I know you like I knew you when we were rollerblading
Around the town, all up and down back in Connecticut
Yea, I know you and you wouldn't have liked this

Put your problems away
I don't have any time to talk to you
There are people that you could pay
Your money cries louder than you do

And it may be sad
But it's just the state of things we're in
Don't get mad
Play it like a game, maybe you'll

Put your costume on
Put your costume on, maybe you'll win
Track Name: Painted Face
See my eyes, know that they've been crying
See my smile, know that it's all fake
Painted face, you're so good at lying
Paint you on every single day

And I'm begging you to see right through me
Yes I'm begging you to question more
I'm a hologram, there's nothing to me
Put your hand through my chest, walk out my door

Broken wings, you're so good at flying
Busted legs, how you keep that pace
Painted face, you're the reason I am
Standing still in this hurricane

And I'm begging you to see right through me
Yes I'm begging you to question more
I'm a hologram, there's nothing to me
Put your hand through my chest, walk out my

(I'm begging you)
To see right through me, yes
(I'm begging you)
To question more
(I'm a hologram)
There's nothing to me
Put your hand through my chest walk out my...

Discotheque, going in my head
Dancing never stops, music never rests
Maybe when it does, I will realize
I should listen more, open up my eyes

But for now, I'm chilling
For now, so chilling
For now, I'm fine here
For now, so fine here

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Track Name: Robot
You should see the looks on their faces
When I show them I'm not real
When I tell them how these bones were made
In some artist's studio

When I tell them how my heart was found
At the bottom of the sea
They took all my broken pieces out
And started rebuilding me

So maybe you can see me for what I am
Just another robot with no plans
And I'm sorry if you took this the wrong way
But I can never stay

You should see the looks on their faces
When I show them I how breathe
When I tell them how these lungs were made
In some lonely factory

When I tell them how they turned me on
Waited for the sparks to fly
And I think I felt a rush of blood
As I was opening my eyes

So maybe you can see me for what I am
Just another robot with no plans
And I'm sorry if you took this the wrong way
But I can never stay

Cause I can't risk being torn apart again
It happened once it was too hard
So I'm sorry if you took this the wrong way
But I can never stay

We are all, are tiny little flowers
Floating in all the lovely winds
And we are all, are gonna disappear soon
So let's all enjoy it while we can

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You can see me for what I am
Just another robot with no plans
And I'm sorry if you took this the wrong way
But I can never stay

Cause I can't risk being torn apart again
It happened once it was too hard
So I'm sorry if you took this the wrong way
But I can never stay

No I can never, never stay
You know I can never, never stay
Track Name: Hardwired
Tell me everything's okay
Cause it seems everything might break

So I'll wait here, I won't make a move
I know what evolution can do
And I'm hardwired to be here with you
I know you are too

Soon we'll wonder what this means
'Til then, please just go to sleep

You toss and you turn, I know where it hurts
And I'll try, you'll see, to make this work
It's nothing I thought that I'd ever want
But you're deep in my bones, in my veins, in my lungs

So I'll wait here, I won't make a move
I know what evolution can do
And I'm hardwired to be here with you
I know you are too

If you feel like I'm gone
It's not that I am moving on
Tides will drift, but tides return
I may drift, but I'll return to you

So I'll wait here, I won't make a move
I know what evolution can do
And I'm hardwired to be here with you
I know you are too

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Track Name: Fossil Tears
No matter what I do, I know you're keeping tabs
Everything I say goes into that mental notebook you have
And I don't think it's fair, but I don't have a choice
It's just the way my cards keep falling

If I were to go, I know you'd be upset
But everything I am can be purchased or created again
I don't think it's fair, I'm so easily replaced
But it's just the way I've been evolving

So give me ten million more years
I'll grow scales and claws and steel jaws
Watch my weak heart disappear
We'll go excavating for my fossil tears

Take it down a notch, with you it's hard to breathe
Every time we talk I'm always disagreeing to agree
And I don't think it's fair, but that's way it is
It's just the way my cards keep falling

If I were to go, I know you'd be upset
I know how I made you feel in bed and you'd want it again
And I don't think it's fair, but that's the way we live
It's just the way I've been evolving

So give me ten million more years
I'll grow scales and claws and steel jaws
Watch my weak heart disappear
We'll go excavating for my fossil tears

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(ten million more years)
(weak heart disappear)

So give me ten million more years
I'll grow scales and claws and steel jaws
Watch my weak heart disappear
We'll go excavating for my fossil tears

repeat

No matter what I do, I know you're keeping tabs...
Track Name: Oh Lo Lo
I write this song, it's one A.M.
I can't believe that you are on my mind
You're on my mind again
You're on my mind again

Take a breath, get out of bed
Do what I can to give these thoughts some life
I'll bring this back again
I'll bring this back again

I will find the notes and melodies
To give these words a set of wings
And throw them off into the wind
'Til they get where they're going

Pretty soon you'll understand
That this is just the way I am
Throw this off into the wind
'Til it gets where you're living

I should wash my hands of you
Oh Lo Lo
Why is that so hard to do?

Maybe soon I'll start to see
All of the broken parts you criticized
And I will fall asleep
I'll finally fall asleep

But 'til then it's only sun
And when it sets a new one starts to rise
I'll never get to sleep
I'll never get to sleep

I will find the notes and melodies
To give these words a set of wings
And throw them off into the wind
'Til they get where they're going

Pretty soon you'll understand
That this is just the way I am
Throw this off into the wind
'Til it gets where you're living

I should wash my hands of you
Oh Lo Lo
Why is that so hard to do?
Oh Lo Lo
Track Name: Natural Progression
It started with the rain
We thought nothing of it
It started with the rains
We didn't ever question

Then a couple months went by
People started wondering why
The sun refused to rise
And why the seas were overflowing

It's nothing that you said
It's nothing that you did
No, it's not something you can fix
It's not even broken

It's just a natural progression
Of this dying place we live
They say it happens all the time
In other solar systems

It was all over the news, they said
You've got nowhere to run
Then something really strange happened
We learned to breathe without our lungs

We built new highways and communities
And everything was cool
Our economy was flourishing
Kids were going to good schools

It's nothing that you said
It's nothing that you did
No, it's not something you can fix
It's not even broken

It's just a natural progression
Of this dying place we live
They say it happens all the time
In other solar systems

Just gotta tweak the lips and fix the lungs
The transformation's almost done

It started with the rain
We thought nothing of it
It started with the rains
They were everything we needed

Now we wait to pass the time
Hoping we'll survive it
When the sun comes back and brings to life
All the things we left behind

It's nothing that you said
It's nothing that you did
No, it's not something you can fix
It's not even broken

It's just a natural progression
Of this dying place we live
They say it happens all the time
In other solar systems
Track Name: Drift With It
Wake me up, you open curtain
Cause today's the day that I've been waiting for
I know it's strange, but now it's certain
Believe me babe, I'm halfway out the door

I don't want to be cruel, don't want to be harsh
Don't want to say words to break your heart
But you said it yourself, "we're drifting apart"
So we'll drift with it

Rain falls through an open window
Plays the hurried beat to which I think
This familiar song, I know this tempo
The heart grows stronger with each defeat

I don't want to be cruel, don't want to be harsh
Don't want to say words to break your heart
But you said it yourself, "we're drifting apart"
So we'll drift with it

For as long as we can
For as long as we can

Wake me up, you open curtain
Cause today's the day that I've been waiting for
I know it's strange, but now it's certain
Believe me babe, I'm halfway out the door

I don't want to be cruel, don't want to be harsh
Don't want to say words to break your heart
But you said it yourself, "we're drifting apart"
So we'll drift with it

For as long as we can
For as long as we can
Track Name: The Way You Make Me Smile
Paint me a picture
And sign with your name
It'll pay off my mortgage one day

You might not see it
I know what you're worth
And I pray to God you never change

Write me a poem
Of something you love
With the big words you learned back in school

I promise I'll read it
But not that I'll get it
See, I'm a bit simpler than you

Oh the way you make me smile
Put your suitcases down, won't you stay for a while?
I'll do my best to make this real
I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel

Down by the river
I swallowed my heart
And the space made it easier to breathe

Now when I miss you
My stomach goes wild
The pain brings me down to my knees

So maybe it's best if
We leave this for now
Put aside like an old recipe

We might still crave it
Of course I still crave it
We're just not who we used to be

Oh the way you make me smile
Put your suitcases down, won't you stay for a while?
I'll do my best to make this real
I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel

I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel
I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel

Please don't leave
You're the only one I need

Oh the way you make me smile
Put your suitcases down, won't you stay for a while?
I'll do my best to make this real
I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel

I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel
I'm trying, I swear, but it's hardest to feel
Track Name: Married A Robber
Thank you my darling, you gave it an old fashioned try
Now hold up your head, don't you cry
The little ones are near

Tomorrow they're coming, they'll find you and take you away
So pack up, but say that you'll stay
The little ones can hear

Soon I'll forget that we had a family
Soon I'll forget it all fell apart
And you're robbing your banks like you're robbing my heart
It's not a crime babe, I asked for these scars

Thank you my darling, you always know just what to write
These letters you send right on time
The little ones are strong

The winters are hard here, but we're doing fine on our own
I get it, it's "all that you know"
the little ones moved on

Soon I'll forget that we had a family
Soon I'll forget it all fell apart
And you're robbing your banks like you're robbing my heart
It's not a crime babe, I asked for these scars

I'll always love you
I'll leave the lights on
You better come home.
Track Name: Watch For Me
Guard up, hands down, let's talk this out
I know my lines, I'm ready now
To say the things that I'm supposed to say

I'll get the door, you grab the chains
Let's do whatever it might take
I know how we both like to run away

Now I'm not that strong
But I will take you on
You better watch for me

If it means I'll bleed
Then I'll bleed
I'll bleed
I'll bleed

Get on your marks, let's fight this out
I've got my gloves, I'm ready now
To show you what I really meant to say

Words turn themselves into a phrase
But sentences never could explain
I've got to find some other way

Now I'm not that strong
But I will take you on
You better watch for me

If it means I'll bleed
Then I'll bleed
I'll bleed
I'll bleed

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